This is my last post on this blog. I have decided to begin a new blog to go with the new phase of life that I have entered. Those that are interested are welcome to continue this journey with me at: theevolutionofamy.blogspot.com

Symphony of Science - We are All Connected

This is my favorite from the Symphony of Science series. It's absolutely beautiful. Check out the others in the series too, the rest are just as lovely. What a fantastic way to combine art and science.

Finally feeling better

I had all these great plans to do things last week. Monday I woke up with great energy and I planned to change my sheets and do some yoga, do some studying and just generally enjoy the day. I started to feel a tickle in my throat and was starting to get a little stuffy when I had to go out to run some errands, but I thought it was allergies. By the time I got home all I wanted to do was crawl into bed. And I did. At 6:30pm I was out, and spent the night sleeping and waking, shivering and sweating. My temp spiked at 103, and by morning everything hurt from my head to my toes. I hate the flu!

So most of the week was spent lying in bed, eating soup and drinking tea and getting absolutely nothing done. By Friday I was feeling like myself again, but it was hard to tell which day had been which through the week. I was just so...foggy. That's what I get for not getting a flu shot, I suppose. But when Chase gets here in December, we'll both go get one together.

I have 34 more days until he and I are together again, and this time for good. I can't wait. Each morning when he calls we tick off another day.

But, since I was feeling so much better today, I finally got my sheets changed and cleaned out my room to make room for my honey. All of my extra stuff is stored away and more than half the dresser has been cleaned out (since I hang up most of my clothes, there's no lack for dresser space). I just hope he's not adverse to the rather floral decor of this room :-\ but I'm sure that he really won't care, as long as we are together. And hopefully within the next year I'll be making enough that we'll be able to get a little place of our own that we can decorate together.

Odd

Feeling kind of odd today. I'm not sure if it has to do with my pmdd or not. I feel like all the emotional disturbance that comes with this disorder skipped me during my last cycle. Maybe because I was so excited about going down to Baton Rouge, and being with Chase calms and evens me out for some reason. But even though I should be on an even keel right now, the past few days I feel like it's all been crashing down, making up for giving me a reprieve. I don't know. Maybe I'm just tired. I haven't been sleeping well. Maybe I'm just really, really missing Chase.

Either way, I'll make it through this.

3am Reflections

Saturday marked my six month anniversary with the most wonderful man I've ever met. No, it is not the man I mentioned in my last post. I dated off an on after I joined Match.com, but I never really felt anything was going anywhere. That was until March, when I met the love of my life.

So much has changed since Chase came into my life, and though not all of it has to do him, I am so thankful to have had his love and support through everything. Living so far apart has been difficult (he's in Louisiana), but we've made due with as many visits as we have been able, Skype, texting, the phone, and online chatting.

In May, I enrolled in school to become a massage therapist, something I've been thinking about for about three years now. And in September, I moved to Colorado. My school is out here, so I decided to come out here for the hands-on training portion, and to be closer to my family.

Last weekend, I spent the most wonderful 2 1/2 days with my honey, and I can't wait until I can see him again. We had planned for him to come out for two weeks in February, but after some discussion, it looks like he may be moving out here in December! I have never been so excited!

The most difficult part of living in CO, is being away from my Little Inventor. He is still in PA with his dad and soon-to-be stepmom, and is doing so wonderful. I miss him everyday, but I know that he is right where he needs to be. His grades are great, he's happy, healthy and thriving and I know that he is in the best of hands with Lone Wolf and Red. I am so thankful to have them in my life, and so glad that Little Inventor has a strong mother figure there to take care of him while I cannot. I will be forever grateful to Red for loving him just as much as I do.

So, that's the deal for the time being. Now that my life is a little more settled, I will try to post a little more often, but we shall see.

Okay, here goes nothing

I decided it is time for me to go ahead and expound upon what I didn't want to fully mention in my update post a few weeks ago.

I know this is going to come as a major surprise to a lot people...but Lone Wolf and I called it quits last February.
I'll just let that sink in for a minute.

Okay, now that I've said that, I'm sure some are asking, why? Well, it's complicated. But the short and sweet version is...we're just much better as friends than as a couple. We are still living in the same house, and have decided to continue to do so. We are co-parenting and co-habitating. And quite honestly, neither of us have ever been happier. We've never really been much for arguing, but it happens even more rarely now. And Little Inventor seems happier as well...a product of seeing us happier and less stressed, I am sure.

Lone Wolf met someone. She is the most wonderful woman! They are absolutely perfect for each other. They are just the other half of each other. And she is so great with Little Inventor! So, as odd as it may sound, she is living with us. I know, it's an unusual situation, but it has simply worked out beautifully. She and I are extremely good friends, and Little Inventor just adores her. She is another piece of our family.

And I know that she was meant to be part of our family, even on a metaphysical level. She has always been a part of our family, throughout time. For Lone Wolf it was like finding the other half of his soul, for me, it was like finding a sister.

So what about me? I'm dating again. For a time, there was a man in my life that I felt a connection to that I've never had before. But as much as we both wanted to be together, circumstances have kept us apart, and I've had to move on, even though I am still grieving for the loss of him in my life. In December, I put up an ad on Match.com, however, and I was actually rather surprised at how many responses I got.

I have been very careful of who I have responded to however, and am currently forming a relationship with one man in particular. We are taking things very slowly, and just seeing where they lead. So far, so good.

I loved Lone Wolf, and still do, but it was never entirely a romantic love, more of a filial emotion that we still share. And though my relationship with J was brief, it was extremely intense. With this new man in my life, I feel that things are progressing at a more natural pace, slowly and building the more time we spend together. As it should be.

It's 2am..do you know where your pillow is?

Apparently I don't. Okay, I know where it is, I just don't seem to have the capability of using it much these days. I'm so freaking tired. But I can't sleep. I close my eyes and then I'm not tired anymore. Until around 6am, when I've got two hours before I have to get Little Inventor up for school. Mercifully, he had a snow day today. So I actually got four hours of sleep instead of two. Alright, I think I'm going to give sleep another try. Third times a charm right?

No Resolutions

This year, my only "resolution" was to make no more New Year's resolutions. So far, I've stuck to it. Easiest one I've ever made. No one ever sticks to a New Year's resolution. What is the point? Make a promise to yourself that you know you are going to break in two weeks anyway?

If I want to set a goal for myself, I'm not going to do it just because it's the beginning of a new year, but because it is what I want to do. So from now on, no more resolutions for January first. I can feel like a failure for not meeting my goals any time of the year, thanks very much. Better at the end of a year, than at the very beginning of one.
  

A New Year. A New Me.

Since the last time I signed on here to make a post, nearly an entire year has passed. And what a year it has been. So much has changed in our lives, that it is difficult to know where to begin. Little Inventor has been placed in public school for third grade, and is thriving! The school he is attending has a wonderful learning support staff, and with the extra help he's been receiving in reading and speech, we have seen serious improvements. Holding him back that extra year for second grade really did wonders for his development.

We are still living in E-town, though we are seriously considering a move in the next six months closer in to the city. I've been doing a ton of sewing, and have discovered a love for costuming. I'm also trying to re-enter the job market, which is, as many of you know, an uphill battle. But I'm keeping my fingers crossed for something at least part time in the near future.

The biggest changes in our lives, however, are much more personal between myself and Lone Wolf. For the time being, until a few family members have been informed, I am not at liberty to divulge, but stay tuned! It's a new year, with a new design, and a new me, and I'm looking forward to blogging this new path on my adventure of life.

Hello 2010

Ahh a new year. So much to do, so little time to do it.
I'll have to come back when my mind is a little less addled to give a proper update. But I have been writing again. I'm trying for at least 2000 words a day. Today I got in 2603. Go me :D
Chapters three and four of Lydia are posted, for any who care to read it.